Infertility

Living with Infertility

Wanting, hoping waiting,
Loving, longing, knowing,
Feeling the loss before I could lose you.
Never seeing, touching or smelling.
Dreaming, aching, crying.
Losing the hope and joy,
Of Motherhood.

niki-2010

Friday, December 3, 2010

5 months!

I am officially starting my 6th month of pregnancy! I can't believe it! This pregnancy has gone by so fast.

I am really starting to show now, which makes me excited. I think I will take a few pictures and show my progression from here on out. It takes me about 5 months before you can really see my belly (one of the good things about being tall) but for me I can't wait to show off my belly, so I wish I would show earlier. :(

Baby Eva is moving around like a little bouncy ball inside my belly. She has even let Flavio and Hannah feel her kick! I love this time of being pregnant! We are so very happy and feel so very blessed! And I am starting to get the "nesting" bug, so my house better watch out!

Lol

Niki

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Has it sunk in?


Many of you know that I have two crazy, but adorable little girls who are the sunshine of my life. When we went to go see what this baby was going to be, I will admit, I was hopeful for a boy. There are a few reasons for this, first, it would be nice to have a boy due to the fact that I am an only child and happen to be a girl, we have only had girls, so on my side of the family we have never experienced a baby boy. Second, having babies is not an easy task for us...so with this little bundle of joy being a boy, being "done" would have been a lot easier to deal with...now we are not so sure we are done. Third, the only dream I have ever had of having a child, is about a boy. So it seemed logical to me that we would be having a boy sooner than later...well, as most of us know, our way does not usually match God's way. :)

So, when the ultrasound tech finally got around to telling us that we were going to have another girl, I thought for sure that I was going to be totally disappointed. But I wasn't. I was thrilled...and shocked. But thrilled. And now the idea that I will be having 3 daughters has really sunk in. I am thrilled for and envious of them. I hope that they are best friends. I hope that as they get older and have their own families they will have each other to call, to go out with and help one another. There are MANY days I wish I had that. Therefore, I am very excited that they will have not one, but two sisters to call on and share their experiences with.

I am so excited to have this little baby girl and we are doubly excited and blessed that she is healthy and strong. She is exactly where she needs to be in measurement and health. She is getting more and more active and I love feeling those little bumps and pushes. And I love how every day, Hannah wants to see my stomach and every day she tells me how huge I am :) I am grateful I get to share this experience with my girls. And although Hannah was the most vocal when it came to sharing her feelings at the ultrasound..."But I wanted a boy!" she shouted, as soon as the announcement of a another girl was made. (I think she was confused in the idea that we get to choose what we want.) But she is very excited now and prays for baby Eva every day and night.

Thank you, once again, for being a part of this journey with us. We are thrilled and excited. We are already half way and so in just a short 20 weeks, I will have my third miracle baby in my arms. And I can't wait.

Lots of love,
Niki

Friday, November 12, 2010

And we are having...



A GIRL!!!!!!


We are very excited!

And the winner of the contest is Arianne!


Congratulations!


Lots and lots of love,

Niki

Friday, October 15, 2010

Contest

So I am not usually into these types of things, but I thought why not? So I want to see what everyone thinks I am having...if you guess right and you are the number we pick from a drawing, I will give away a mini photo shoot for Christmas cards. This would only be a family picture with no singles, but you would get a CD with a few photos to choose from! For free! So let the guessing begin!

(You must be in Utah or Salt Lake Counties to win)

End date for this will be November 12, 2010!

LOL

Niki

Monday, October 11, 2010

Technology

I love that technology is now telling me that my baby really looks like a baby now. He/she can open and close his/her hands, is starting to hear noises and moves all over the place...I have felt a little jolt now and then :)

It is amazing how you can be in love with someone you can't see, really feel or know. But I am in love with this little person and can't wait to meet them :)

lol

niki

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Hello

So it has been a few days since I wrote. I am not sure how many people check this blog, but I have appreciated all of the love and comments I have received from so many :)

I am now 13 weeks pregnant! I am still sick with nausea and headaches quite a bit, but I think it should only be a couple more weeks of this and then my second tri-mester...yay! I LOVED my second tri-mester with Hannah.

And in two weeks we get to go to San Diego for a family vacation. I am looking forward to getting away and spending some fun time with the family. I just pray I feel great by then ;)

lol

niki

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

What a beautiful sound!

So yesterday we had a doctor's appointment. We were able to hear the beautiful little sound of our baby's heartbeat. I forgot how comforting this is. He or she is doing great. We are 11 1/2 weeks, so we have almost made it to our second trimester! Yay! With what I can remember, the second trimester was great. I felt great, I could start to feel the baby and we get to find out what we are having! YAY!

So happy being pregnant!

lol

niki