Living with Infertility

Wanting, hoping waiting,
Loving, longing, knowing,
Feeling the loss before I could lose you.
Never seeing, touching or smelling.
Dreaming, aching, crying.
Losing the hope and joy,
Of Motherhood.


Friday, January 28, 2011

Belly time

So, as my pregnancy has continued to progress, I am once again amazed at how a woman's body is able to grow a human being. It is amazing that our internal organs are able to get squeezed and moved and logged into areas that I know are not natural (at least they don't feel natural). Yet, our little babies are able to snuggle themselves right into our middle area and live for a full 9 months! It is truly a miracle and I feel so blessed that I have been able to experience this transformation at least one more time in this life. As uncomfortable as I am getting...there is nothing more amazing than feeling my baby girl move and grow inside of me. I love her so much already and in only 9 short weeks, I will have her in my arms! Hooray! I am now 30 weeks pregnant! And this is what 30 weeks looks like...

I do plan on doing some "real" maternity pics...It is just a little tricky when I am doing them myself. So more to come! As I grow and grow and grow....

Monday, January 24, 2011

Taking things for granted...

Now, I know this may sound like I am going to get all mushy and sentimental...because I do tend to take many of my blessing for granted. However, right now I am suffering with a head-cold. My head hurts, my nose is a permanent drain (where does all that stuff come from anyway?) and my throat is all itchy and dry. Which brings me to my title: the one thing I wish I could do right now and that I know I take for granted when I am not pregnant, is take some REAL medicine that would knock me out and dry my nose up.

But alas, I cannot. So I am stuck trying all the "natural" remedies and blowing my nose until it is raw.

However, I will admit, the reason I can't take the medicine is totally worth it. :)



P.S. Does anyone want to see belly pictures? Or is that just weird?

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Not sure...

...If anyone is still listening, but I thought I would write a few words. I am 29 1/2 weeks pregnant! That is almost 7 months pregnant. I will be starting my 8th month next week! The last few weeks have been filled with sleepless nights, lots of eating and a big, growing belly :)

I have also had the urge to purge. I am tackling one closet and drawer at a time...Flavio helping along the way. I hope to have gone through, thrown away and given up everything that I haven't used, seen or missed for over a year. It is such an emotional cleansing.

Hope everyone is well and that you are having a wonderful New Year.