Infertility

Living with Infertility

Wanting, hoping waiting,
Loving, longing, knowing,
Feeling the loss before I could lose you.
Never seeing, touching or smelling.
Dreaming, aching, crying.
Losing the hope and joy,
Of Motherhood.

niki-2010

Friday, January 28, 2011

Belly time


So, as my pregnancy has continued to progress, I am once again amazed at how a woman's body is able to grow a human being. It is amazing that our internal organs are able to get squeezed and moved and logged into areas that I know are not natural (at least they don't feel natural). Yet, our little babies are able to snuggle themselves right into our middle area and live for a full 9 months! It is truly a miracle and I feel so blessed that I have been able to experience this transformation at least one more time in this life. As uncomfortable as I am getting...there is nothing more amazing than feeling my baby girl move and grow inside of me. I love her so much already and in only 9 short weeks, I will have her in my arms! Hooray! I am now 30 weeks pregnant! And this is what 30 weeks looks like...




I do plan on doing some "real" maternity pics...It is just a little tricky when I am doing them myself. So more to come! As I grow and grow and grow....



Monday, January 24, 2011

Taking things for granted...




Now, I know this may sound like I am going to get all mushy and sentimental...because I do tend to take many of my blessing for granted. However, right now I am suffering with a head-cold. My head hurts, my nose is a permanent drain (where does all that stuff come from anyway?) and my throat is all itchy and dry. Which brings me to my title: the one thing I wish I could do right now and that I know I take for granted when I am not pregnant, is take some REAL medicine that would knock me out and dry my nose up.

But alas, I cannot. So I am stuck trying all the "natural" remedies and blowing my nose until it is raw.

However, I will admit, the reason I can't take the medicine is totally worth it. :)



lol

Niki


P.S. Does anyone want to see belly pictures? Or is that just weird?

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Not sure...

...If anyone is still listening, but I thought I would write a few words. I am 29 1/2 weeks pregnant! That is almost 7 months pregnant. I will be starting my 8th month next week! The last few weeks have been filled with sleepless nights, lots of eating and a big, growing belly :)

I have also had the urge to purge. I am tackling one closet and drawer at a time...Flavio helping along the way. I hope to have gone through, thrown away and given up everything that I haven't used, seen or missed for over a year. It is such an emotional cleansing.

Hope everyone is well and that you are having a wonderful New Year.

LOL

Niki