Living with Infertility

Wanting, hoping waiting,
Loving, longing, knowing,
Feeling the loss before I could lose you.
Never seeing, touching or smelling.
Dreaming, aching, crying.
Losing the hope and joy,
Of Motherhood.


Friday, June 18, 2010

Let the journey begin...

I have decided to start a blog about the daily life of an IVF family. What is IVF you might ask? This is the shortened name for In-Vitro. Couples who are not able to have children on there own and who have severe infertility issues are usually prime candidates for this procedure. Here are some basic questions and answers for those who are not familiar with IVF and who are in the same situation or know someone who is. My hope is that this blog will help someone on their journey to building a family.

What is IVF and what do you have to do?

IVF is where an infertility specialist and an embryologist are able to harvest a woman's eggs and collect a man's sperm to create an embryo outside of the womb. It is simply amazing.

As far as what happens, well, I will be blogging about each day to share with you the ups and downs that come with this amazing technology. There are shots, tons of doctor visits, ultra sounds, hormones, and more doctor visits :)

How mush does it cost?

This differs. You can go out of the country and do IVF for only $5,000. If you stay in the States, the average cost for IVF is $14,000. This includes the medications and the actual IVF process.

I am excited to be able to blog my journey. We have gone through this before and I have nothing written down about how I felt or what what happening. The first journey was tough. It took us 3 tries to get our little Hannah. I went through some dark times mentally and spiritually. But I grew from it. I learned to trust more, not only myself but God as well. He has a plan for all of us. He knows what we are going through and what we suffer.

I also want to say that this blog is not intended for sympathy or pity. This blog is to share a journey that is so unique, and in some respects very personal. However, like I said before, I hope that this will help one person who may need help from our experience with infertility. I have been to hell and back with this trial and I know that it won't be over until we stop wanting more children.

My biggest hope is that my two beautiful daughters, Hannah and Lia (Lia came to us through the miracle of adoption), will grow up knowing that they are loved deeply not only by us, their parents, but by their Father in Heaven. They are our children no matter how they came to us. I am grateful for the experiences I have gone through because of infertility and I am equally grateful there are options for those of us who are going through it.

So let the journey begin...

June 18: I am going to get a Sonohyst. This is where they make sure there are no blockages in my fallopian tubes. They shoot some dye in and look via ultra sound to make sure everything looks great. We also are paying the full amount for the IVF, minus the meds.


  1. I totally remember when I had to have my tubes checked. Thanks for sharing this I am excited to follow along while you do this.

  2. Hope it went well. Those always hurt!!! What Dr. are you going to? I wish you the best of luck. I know this journey and how emotional it is. Hope it all goes well for you guys!

  3. I'm excited to follow along and wish you the best!