Living with Infertility

Wanting, hoping waiting,
Loving, longing, knowing,
Feeling the loss before I could lose you.
Never seeing, touching or smelling.
Dreaming, aching, crying.
Losing the hope and joy,
Of Motherhood.


Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Egg Retrieval

Tomorrow is one of two very important days...the egg retrieval day. I have been taking shots every day for 3 weeks (42 shots in all). All this time my ovaries have been stimulated in such a way that instead of producing 1 or 2 eggs, they said I should have about 8. They will then take Flavio's sperm and put one in each egg. This is called ICSI (i-c-see). Not everyone has to do this, for just in-vitro they can put the egg in a petri dish along with the sperm and let nature do it's thing...but we are a little on the worse case scenario side, so we have to do the ICSI along with in-vitro. It is amazing technology and without we would never be able to have a full biological child.

Tomorrow we have to be at U of U by 7:30 am...early. And thank you, Beth, for being willing to watch our other two munch-kins. :) It will help us a ton! So the egg retrieval consists of me being put under for about an hour. During that time they will extract the eggs produced and then inject the sperm that day. We will wait 3 days and then we will go back for the embryo transfer. At this time they will not put more than 2 embryos in my uterus (no octo-mom for me). If there are any more good embryos, then they will be frozen for future use.

This is the climax of everything we have gone through. Without a successful transfer, we will not get pregnant...and well, you can imagine how that would go for me. Not good.

So we are hopeful and scared. We have prayed and fasted and we have gone to the temple. We also know we have had the prayers of many in our behalf and we pray once again that this is the will of God, to bless us with at least one more of His precious spirits.

Thank you for your love and prayers.

With love,


  1. Wow, I can feel my blood pressure rising just reading this....what a scary, exciting adventure you two are on!!! We will keep you in our prayers.

  2. that's awesome that you'll have up to 8 eggs to retrieve. We only had 5, if I remember correctly, and 3 fertilized. We ended up chosing to put in all 3 embryos, which was not the plan. But when the time came, the feeling came over us to do so. Not sure why but we were suppose to. I'm glad your "egg growing" process went well...ours was very very bumpy. At one point they thought they'd have to stop and try "another option" because the eggs didn't seem to be developing correctly BUT with a priesthood blessing, miracles to happen and within a few days the drs were amazed at how much more mature the eggs had become.

    We will continue to pray for you. I know this is a tough point and that this point comes with lots of different feelings. Know that the Lord is aware of you and your righteous desire to be a mother. Find comfort in knowing that no matter what, if you've left it in His hands, the outcome is perfect. I had to hold to that knowledge..."no matter what, it's perfect because He's perfect" make it through the weeks of waiting for the results.

    You guys are awesome and we'll continue to pray for your miracle!!

  3. Thank you Celeste...I needed that :)