Living with Infertility

Wanting, hoping waiting,
Loving, longing, knowing,
Feeling the loss before I could lose you.
Never seeing, touching or smelling.
Dreaming, aching, crying.
Losing the hope and joy,
Of Motherhood.


Sunday, July 11, 2010

Random thoughts

Feeling a little nervous, tomorrow we have an ultrasound that will tell all sorts of things...if the meds are working (they better be) many eggs I will have, if I am hyper-stimulating (I better not be)...the day of the egg retrieval and the approximate time of the embryo transfer. I am trying to wrap my brain around the idea that we may be getting pregnant with our 3rd or 4th child. Am I really ready? Everyone tells me that the third child is the hardest, I am thinking, well if I have a 3rd child, will this be the case for me or maybe if I have twins, meaning I have my 3rd and 4th child at once, maybe it will be easier ;) I will skip right over having a 3rd child and have 4! Anyway, I was just thinking...this week or next I could be pregnant. I am very excited and scared and emotional and filled with anticipation. It is getting close and we pray that all will go well, that we can get pregnant and that I can be strengthened to be able to be the mom of 3 or 4 kids :)




  1. Oh how I know all those feelings you are having.. I wish you all the very best and know everything will go according to the lords plan.. you are in my thoughts and prayers.

  2. We will be praying for you. I know the feelings that are flowing through you right now. They are overwhelming feelings sometimes. When we found out we were having twins, the Lord was right there comforting us, letting us know it was his will. At times I wonder how I will handle it with 4 kids but I know He'll be there for me!! Doubling the amount of children you have is quite a scary thought...if you need support, I'm here to listen and to help! Good luck!!!